I want to apologize to the "DASH people." I have spent my life trapped in an impossible dichotomy that has only gotten worse with time. I've recently sorted out what that dichotomy was. I'll not get into too many details, but it has led me to some very hostile behavior from a "give you back what you gave me, trial by the same fires with which you burned me" attitude. I was trapped between my love of the United State's Bill of Rights, and the fact that it functionally does not exist anymore as a result of nearly a century of creeping corruption in the United States' Government. I've held on too long and paid a price, mentally, that I've taken out on others simply as a means of continued survival. Some people self-medicate. I refuse to let my perceptions be fogged. I demand to see clearly. The psychotic have no conscience to be tortured. The oblivious have no idea there is something by which their conscience should be bothered. The savages are just savages... I say this not to excuse, but to give a full accounting of how it all went wrong and how I have wronged others as a result. I have done what I have done as a result of cognitive dissonance brought about by the impossible dichotomy. I've been fighting for the USA to make a comeback since I was old enough to read. But, it never will. It is dead. I have given decades of my life that I cannot get back, and many years of the future lost to mental distress. All for the reward of being repeatedly stabbed in the back by my fellow citizens who continue the cheer that "Someone should do something!" The demographic kept getting narrower and narrower. I even started a business that targeted only decent Americans. And I wish to say to them; thank you so very much! But, this was an echo chamber itself. I surrounded myself with the less-than-one-percent of Americans who were not part of the problem, and let myself believe that the USA still had hope. I have to let it go. The USA is beyond all hope. I raised the alarm for decades, only to be called a fool. Now that all I warned has come true, a few have woken up, but it's way too little, way too late. Holding on to the love of The Constitution, The Declaration of Independence, the Bill of Rights... I wouldn't let it go. Even beyond all reason, I loved it and fought for it. And mostly, it's last ditch; the 2nd Amendment. But, no one is willing to use it, so there's no reason to pretend it has any value. It disintegrated around me. The name, United States of America, has become the complete opposite of everything it was meant to be. I wasn't pleased with Trump's election, but he was still better than anything else... The Swamp, as he calls it, will never be drained. No one will Make America Great Again. I gave it another year, and the SJWs only got stronger because the "deep state" is not a joke. I laughed at the people talking about "deep state." It's not even deep anymore. We saw it strike with impunity at Charlottesville. The local government coordinated with domestic terrorist groups such as BLM, antifa, and the like. The police rounded up the people who paid for their "free speech" permit, and pushed them directly into the rioters who did not have a permit. They forced the violence, prevented any form of defense, and then told the media it was a bunch of racists that deserved it... Of course, the media ran with that pack of lies. There's a reason they don't show you any of the cameras on the ground... Even when the vale is dropped, We the People are far too stupid to figure it out. The next time they stab me in the back, I won't be able to get back up. I would have given my last dying breath if only one person had joined the cause to preserve this once great nation. But, no one ever did. The MAGA crowd is just as quick to backstab me for taking the actions they are too weak and cowardly to take, as the neo-Bolsheviks are to frontstab me for the same. "Someone should do something!" There is only one path... History has shown it to us many times... It's ugly, but the only way out, is through. In fire and blood. Your delicate sensibilities can't handle that? You lose. Freedom is lost a little chip at a time, and it has never been taken back by means other than large, bloody, chunks. I decided to keep my last dying breath for myself instead of squandering it on ingrates who immediately backstab the someone willing to to that something. I decided to let go of this sinking ship. The greatest love I ever had is dead, and I finally admit it. The empty, fake name "United States of America" may go on, but what it stood for will never be restored because the very people crying about it the hardest, are doing exactly what they must to end it. The Evil Party has the Stupid Party doing exactly what it wants... I am seeking alternatives on the path to renouncing my US citizenship. I haven't even been able to say it out loud yet. Only type it... I'll spend at least the rest of my life trying to get over it, if ever... It seems like a small thing, since I planned to spend the rest of my life on the boat I still haven't bought. Procrastinating in foolish hope that my one true love might pull through... It's over. It's time to walk away. I realize I'm not turning my back on the USA. It ceased to be. I lament that the seeds of freedom and liberty have no place left on this corrupted Earth upon which to gain purchase and flourish. The USA was the last hope for Human Rights. Where can they exist now? I want to apologize to those here I have wronged while in this condition.